Keep fighting and be Fearless.

Every day is a struggle, to go to college and continue my facade of being okay, of smiling on the outside and screaming on the inside, banging against invisible walls, hoping someone will hear me, someone will tell me that everything is going to be okay. Every night tears stream down my face, hastily wiped away in shame, I don’t want this, this constant worry and pain, the knot in my chest, the constant feeling in the pit of my stomach that never goes away, sometimes I can mask it; sometimes I can barely contain it. I’m completely alone in this harsh world; no one truly cares. It’s all about gain, money and greed. If I ever get the chance, I will change the world. I’ll help someone and ask for nothing in return. I never want anyone to feel how I have felt. I wonder if there are people feeling the same as me, I know there is: I want to reach out to them and tell them its okay! If we carry on fighting we can be fearless! We can beat this and come out the other side stronger! It gets better! I’m sure which is why I won’t give up; I want to live each day like it’s my last, to make mistakes and learn from them.